在我26岁的生命里,曾经有5次机会可以做妈妈,我都放弃了。最后一次,就是今天,我刚刚吃了两颗叫做含珠停的药物,过几天,我的第5个孩子也将与我失之交臂。我只有麻木,只有不去想,否则,我真的不可能有活下去的坚强。19岁那年,我在半年之内,连续做了两次人工流产,是我初恋男友的,手术后,他把我接到他家,由他妈妈亲自伺候我坐小月子。就是什么都不能吃,盐都不可以多吃,天天都是吃蛋,吃得我到了现在看见蛋都没有胃口。和他分手以后,我后来又交了5个正式的男朋友,都没有出过事,直到2002年,来到广州。 In my 26-year-old life, I had 5 chances to be a mom and I gave up. The last time, that is, today, I just ate two pills called beads stop drugs, a few days, my fifth child will miss me. I am only numb, just do not think about it, otherwise, I really can not survive strong. At the age of 19, I was aborted twice in a row within six months. It was my first love boyfriend. After the operation, he took me to his house, and was served by his mother. Is what can not eat, salt can not eat, eat eggs every day, eat me to see the eggs now have no appetite. After breaking up with him, I later made another five formal boyfriends and never did anything until 2002 when I came to Guangzhou.