我的犯罪,既害了自己,也害了亲人。我和妻子、儿子都被捕入狱,好端端的一个家庭顷刻分崩离析。让我最痛心的是儿子,他研究生即将毕业,本应有不错的前途,却被我推入了灾难之中,新婚燕尔却成了重刑犯人(因受贿罪被判处无期徒刑)。在多少万籁俱寂的夜晚,看着窗外月缺月圆,想到一家四口,三人坐牢,一人独守空房。骨肉分离,天各一方,我痛心疾首,悔不该当初。在这“等死”的长达1300多个日日夜夜里,我戴着脚镣手铐,日里梦里承受着生与死的煎熬,无奈地等待死亡比死亡更痛苦更可怕,真的是生不如死。人们常说度日如年,对我来说简直是度“分”如年,度“秒”如年。贪欲是腐败之源,私欲膨胀,突破了道德和法纪防线,必然导致可悲的下场。我深感作为领导干部,不管公务如何繁忙,切不可放松学习;不管社会生活如何变化,切不可放松自律,要保持清醒头脑,时时把法纪之剑悬于头顶,用道德之绳捆住双手,把责任当成使命。权钱交易的假象,行贿受贿的隐蔽性,确实不是一时一事可以暴露的,侥幸心理会在一定时间内得逞,其结果便是胆子越来越大,在罪恶的深渊里越陷越深。领导干部树立正确的亲情观和子女发展观是至关重要的,亲情再深亦应有度,家庭利益、亲人利益再高,也决不能超越党的利益和人民的利益,决不能突破法律与道德的屏障。虽然? My crime not only harms myself but also kins my loved ones. My wife and my son were both put in jail and a decent family broke down instantly. I am most sad is the son of his graduate graduate soon, should have a good future, but I was pushed into the disaster, newlyweds have become prisoners of justice (for taking bribes was sentenced to life imprisonment). In the night of how many sounds of silence, looking out of the window on a full moon, think of a family of four, three people in jails, one person alone to keep the vacant room. Separation of flesh and blood, each side of the day, I sad, regret not the original. In this “waiting to die” for up to more than 1,300 days and nights, I am wearing handcuffed shackles, day dreams of life and death suffering, helplessly waiting for death more painful than death more terrible, really bad dead. People often say that as the years go by, for me it is simply “points” like years, degrees “seconds” like years. Greed is the source of corruption, the expansion of selfish desires, breaking through the moral and law and discipline lines of defense, will inevitably lead to sad end. I am deeply regarded as a leading cadre. No matter how busy an official is, I must not relax my study. No matter how social life changes, I must not relax my self-discipline, keep a clear mind, always hang the sword of law and discipline over my head, Take responsibility as a mission. The illusion of trading power and the concealment of bribery and bribery really can not be exposed at one o'clock. The luck will eventually succeed in a certain period of time. The result will be more and more courage and deeper and deeper in the abyss of evil. It is of utmost importance for leading cadres to establish a correct outlook on their feelings of family and children and to deepen their dear ones. Family interests and the interests of their loved ones should never be exceeded and the party's interests and the interests of the people must never be exceeded. Moral barrier. although?